Getting through the Days SANELY

Supposedly I felt this particular feeling my friend told me about, that you know, you feel a very massive relief, like a giant stone has been removed from your chest and you are overly in bliss. Yet I feel nothing, I have no idea where this numbness comes from. The euphoria of the fact that I finished my college study did not strike me that hard. Well, that doesn’t mean that I am not happy though, I am. It’s just that THE feeling is sort of overrated. Or maybe it’s going to be a totally different case when I actually graduated one year ago.  Anyway I’m so grateful for what I get right now  that I could finish what I had started and to my parents, my mother mostly, who had paid for the tuition, I could say that I had done THE responsibility right. And the result is not that bad either. That is what matters. Am I right? 

Anyway, my graduation ceremony is one month ahead and the classes that I have been teaching in are in break so I have so much time for myself, doing nothing mostly though. You know how boring it is not to have lots of things to do right, as if your whole life seems so pointless.  When you see there’s not much going on with your life yet the world around you revolving very fast, seemingly leaving you at the other side, that’s just as depressing as you drunkenly lose your house over a casino gambling. Duh, exaggeration alert! I don’t like being that depressed, no it IS not me. Now I’d just like to think that being happy is a matter of choice, you know. It’s that you would either let yourself rot, loath yourself, and just wait for something to happen or you try to make THAT thing happen. And damn, I choose the last one. So I’d like to share what I have chosen, what I have been doing during this where-the-hell–would-I-take-my-life-to moment. 

Not that surprising, I swim. As you probably can see on my profile that explains “you will occasionally see me swimming”, so yeah I swim, A LOT.   

I know, right? but damn, it's not me!

There are a lot of good things you can get out of swimming you know. Let me begin with my personal opinion about it. Well, I always feel refreshed when my skin touches the water and good about myself afterwards. I feel like I’m in control, in check of my breath, my body movement, my speed while exercising, because honestly I am not really good at other sports.  And I feel healthy and good about my shape. Alright, alright I don’t have that much of a swimmer killer body shape, but yeah you’ve got to see my chest and shoulder. Hahaha. One more thing though, based on the article that I read the other day, I forgot the title and the writer, swimming is found very useful in muscle recovery due to injury. It helps relax your muscle. Swimming is also one of the sports that can maintain body endurance a bit longer with a very least injury risk. It also has minimum risk of conflict, you know, because unlike soccer, you go solo when you swim. So, bottom line in my personal opinion, swimming is damn good. It works for me.  

By the way I swim here, at Gelanggang Kolam Renang Universitas Pendidikan Indonesia, my campus, just in case you care to join. 

Besides swimming I also allow myself with some fun, honking playing my guitar. Yep, I just bought myself a guitar. 

And yeah, I like singing alright. I go karaoke now and then with my friends. It’s not that I’m confident with my voice. It’s just one of my ways of releasing stress, channeling the energy, blowing off some steam. It hit me the other day that why not play a guitar and sing along, or more like make noise with it lol. I’m still working on with some of my favorite songs though. Phew… it’s not as easy as it seems, really. 

Well, anyway, let me tell you one little secret, I was actually in a band back then in high school. Not really a band though, it’s just us singing with the 'equipments'. I actually was a vocalist so I held nothing but a microphone. So blame it to that thing if I’m still learning how to play this only one music instrument now.  Either way, I enjoy it, seriously. Now I can play two or three songs and soon another, and another, and another. Yeah it’s fun, man. Really. 

  

Well, well, that has been my life being currently away from college yet still vaguely close to a serious job. I swim, play a guitar, and I read also by the way, and WATCH. Have you read my previous post??? It tells the whole thing about it! Ooh once again though, don’t wait up something to happen to you, you ought to go out there, do everything you have been meaning to do, and choose to be happy!